I love to be creative, but never have time... doesn't really seems fair.

And you know with the new year and all I've been thinking, that that this the one thing I really miss about my old relationship... he was an artist, and that made me feel like I could do things, experiment and such. Evn though sometimes the criticism was too much.

Now, I'm so wrapped up in life that I just don't have time to paint or draw like I would like... I feel like I have all these ideas and characters I want to put own, but don't know how to and know I'll never be able to give them life properly. Maybe someday I'll write their story, if someone doesn't write it first.

Guess I just have to learn to draw late in life, and for now, I'm sorry if I'm not creative, but frankly I don't know what I'm doing. I just like to dabble. I wanted to be as good as my friends, but I'll never be there, they're all artists, and I'm just a wannabe.

Happy New Year everyone, and I hope that everyone out there finds there muses, but until I learn more, and have more time I'm think I'm done.

Sorry.